it is no easy thing to find a friend along the way, i mean the friend whose smile extends, beyond a single day... who has a word of praise, for everything you do & when misfortune turns the tide, is still a friend to you. the kind of friend whose attitude is never dark or cold. but who is always loyal & who has a heart of gold.
-James J. Metcalfe


life is full of people who will make you laugh, cry, smile until your face hurts, and so happy that you think you'll burst. but the ones who leave their footprints on your soul are the ones that keep your life going.
-Nathalie Bernot

Saturday, March 26, 2005

disappointed in myself.

i'm still very disappointed in myself. although it has been like 2 days already. but who cares. got back maths test result. the one on algebra. was already very scare when i found out that we were getting back our paper on that day. was having a little hope that i could do well. but that will never happen i guess. argh. i feel like giving myself a slap. and there's only one word to describe me. hopeless. yeah. that should be the word. well. i had 16.5/30. how bad can that be? very. i was gloomy for one period then i was back to normal. how hopeless can i be? very. it was as if i got good result. someone please give me a slap. i wouldn't bear to give myself one. although i've been wanting to do that.

i don't care. i'm going to study everyday from now onwards. okay. not everyday. but study frequently. i must stop day dreaming! ahhh. hopeless. hopelesss. hopeless.

anyway. i've changed my long term goal. my old one was to get into university of toronto. now i want to get into a university in the US. good ones of course. if not i might as well go university of toronto. and now it's back to the issue of studying hard. with my results like this, how am i even able to get into university of toronto? i have to study hard. i want to prove to myself that i can do it. although mom did not say which university i must get into. she is like always saying as long as i have done my best, then it'll be alright. sighh. but the next goal is to get into triple science. ahh. but my results so bad, how to get in? sighh. have such high hopes for myself. in the end i shall be even more disappointed with myself.

okay. i shall complete my homeworks first. before i can study. and i must stop dreaming of Canada. the day will come eventually. =)

i like Harvard University. Princeton also not bad. or maybe Yale. =) but i guess i can only dream about them?

[63 more days to Canada]
i believe in myself. =)

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

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